[Talk] Just talk

[partygirl (英檢)]

I feel so lonely.

For the first time, I want to go traveling to a foreign country.
I intended to spend more than eight days on the traveling.
But no one can join me.

I'm so dependent.
I have to find a companion to go with me.
I haven't travelled alone.
I don't have many travel experiences.
In fact, I've just gone to Japan, once, and just for five days, and with
my mom and my relatives.

However, I'm already 28 this year.
It's a little bit terrible.
Yes, just a little bit.
I know travelling isn't necessary for any human being.

But, from this incident, I know I'm not really needed,
by any of my acquaintances.
Maybe that's because I'm too selfish.
I didn't do enough for them.
I didn't care enough about them.
So they don't think they need me.

They don't know...
how lonely it is......
when no one would like to go abroad with me.

Ah, this vacation,
this long vacation.

Maybe no one really cares about me.
And that may because I don't really care about anyone.

It results in LONELINESS.

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推 pinxi:Don't be too critical to yourself. You can take the
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→ pinxi:activity. Friends...have their own lives. You can have
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推 wnwangster:do you watch japanese drama? i find "Around 40"
→ wnwangster:very insightful on relationships & life in general
推 chrislo:friends around u r like mirrors
→ partygirl:Thank you all. I know friends have their own lives
→ partygirl:so I come here just to take this place as a diary
→ partygirl:Actually, I don't blame any of them.
→ partygirl:I just let out my negative thoughts and emotions
→ partygirl:Besides, I choose this board because I want to
→ partygirl:practice English. I need to USE English I think.
→ partygirl:And, I like "Around 40," too.
→ partygirl:Although I didn't watch it through
→ chester0937:A "Partygirl" shouldnt be a lonely person...
→ chester0937:ur id is just not fit for ur life...
→ chester0937:anyway, find ur own happiness but sigh alone.