actually i am trully greatuful about their company
they indeed relieve my pain a lot
i am sure i would be a lot lot lot worse if i don't have them
i believe the words from patric that "helping each other"
and as long as we have good intention in mind
the life would be easier to lead
i am thankful their help, and i want to give feedback to them.
i know i made lots of mistakes and i can only comfort myself that
life is about making mistakes
though those things still are like ghosts haunting in my mind
hardly to fotget them all
the goal to take a island tour is a symbol to me
a symbol to find the answer of my question in my life
the answer lies in the past, and i need the people in my past help me
find the answer
i am a little bit anticipating to get a answer
though it's ok if i come back with empty hands
besides, worry about the camera
the question seems unclear enough
whether i have the enough money to buy 10,000 ndt one
or i just can afford the 6,000-7,000 one?
i am not sure of it since i am not math person
i don't keep a close eye on my count book
only knowing that it support my daily outgoings
about him. i don't know
peu-tere i still care about him
but the truth is that i can't get the access
he closed the door. it's not up to me who can open the door
so short and so quick, everything
maybe i feel sad because i am too old to make up for it
or maybe i am denied by the same kind of guy
i want to swear that i will never ever ever ever ever ever
to like this kind of guy
but againg, it's not up to me. it's not my choice
insomnia for consecutive days
i am exetremely tired
this early morning i cried againg because i felt pain
i thought of my past againt
the pain in the past cannot be erased, and it will stay there forever
i got help from friends
but somehow i still feel something lost in mind
i couldn't find the belonging place
i have no a place that i can take a rest
i've lived for 24 yrs, and i am so tired
i could walked any longer if i still find no place for me
i search it, ask for it
but i am always denied. they think others are bettre
i cannot understand why i am always a lonely guy
saying it makes me feel shame but it's true
maybe i am not good enough
but i am sure i make continuing progress in my life
if i can make progress, so why don't He give me a chance to find the place?
i am dystroied in the roots but i still want to make up for it
i want to live without regrets
or just let me disappear from the planet
por favor
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