Will:
I am sorry. I don't know how to say. I am so sorry about the
complaint about the pressure what my parents gave me. They force me
to have a start with you. But I don't think that's fair to you. I try
to make all the things simple. I don't want to hurt you. And I don't
want to hurt the seeing one. He can hurt me with his out-of-mind words
but I cannot be cruel to him. He stayed with me when I am sick. I don't
know how to say that. I have to confess that I wait for your letters
so eagar that I always be happy when I got your letters. Why you don't
send me the letter for almost two weeks? I am so nervous, and I get some
lost. I don't believe that I like you. But I am so badly ill that I have
on confidence to be sure that someone will accept me quite well.
I am sorry about my anxiety. I am sorry that I am seeing somebody.
I am sorry about my parents pressure. I am sorry about your ignorance.
I am sorry about what my bf said. I am sorry about my past. I am sorry
that perhaps I am not good enough to be with you. I am sorry that I really
miss your letters. I am so sorry that I really want to know you more. I am
so sorry that you are far away from me. I am so sorry that maybe you do not
pay so much attention as my parents, or me. I am so sorry that you don't
regard me very much. I am so sorry that I sometimes will have a dream that
you will go back here to have a chance to know me. I am sorry that my parents
raise me expectation high. I am so sorry that I might not pretty as much as
you want your girl to be. I am so sorry that my education is not good enough
for you. I am so sorry that I have the illness to unfinish my degree. I am
sorry that I don't have enough courage. I am sorry that I lost my confidence
to fight for the badly ill. I am sorry that I am depressed. I am so sorry
about the time I lost. I am so sorry that your father treat me very nice.
I am so sorry that I am not good enough to be with you. I am so sorry that
I am not good enough to be with you.
I am sorry that I want to know you more when I am seeing somebody. I am
sorry that I want to see you and try to know you more.
I am sorry for all the things. You are good and innocent. You shouldn't
bear those things.
I am sorry, William. I am sorry. If I have a chance, I really want to
know you, meet you, and be good.
I am sorry.
Embeth
--
“這個世界假使樣樣照邏輯發展，生活就沒有趣味。人容易犯錯，
所以生命千態萬狀。如果我們都是理性的，則我們會淪為機械人。”
--
※ 發信站: 批踢踢實業坊(ptt.cc)
◆ From: 61.224.201.10