Well.
Now that I come to think about it, I probably have just gone through one of the
most dullest Christmas holidays I have ever had in my life.
But on reflecting deeply on this year's Christmas, I can't really come up with
what's really different.
I am still not seeing anyone.
I still handwrote a dozen of Christmas cards and got less than a couple in
return. (I must stress - I don't really care about not receiving Christmas
cards in return. If I did, I probably would have stopped handwriting cards a
long time ago) (well, if I must complain on something, the only card in-return
so far was one that has been downgraded from an eveloped card to a postcard -
but then again, I don't really mind, since what matters is the handwritten
expressions)
I still have a trouble adjusting my sleep/awake schedule and rely on medication
to some unignorable degree.
And I am still a experiencer (damn it, I just don't use "sufferer") of Major
Depression Disorder, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Gender Identification
Disorder, and to some degree, Anorexia Nervosa.
Well.
But,
Maybe it's because I now feel a little further away from my friends as almost
all of them have quit the job.
Maybe it's because last year I was in a Christian country and I even went to a
theme park at Christmas Eve.
But to think about it... this year I actully hadn't even try to remind myself
that Christas was coming.
Didn't pay attention to Christmas trees.
Didn't pay attention to Christmas carols.
(in fact, the only Christmas song I now still remember that I have heard during
the past month is Angels We Have Heard on High - and I heard it from the Starry
Starry Night film. Not in a real-life setting.)
And didn't feel thankful, enjoyful, and happy about what I have had.
But then again, maybe I should go back to one of Christmas's original meaning -
that I spent the whole holiday with my family which I love and which loves me -
and maybe I should just feel happy enough.
Oh and to anyone reading this...Merry Christmas <:
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