[AI. ] 未經原po同意轉錄(orz)-about Adam Cook

[stopthemob ( )]

這篇的確是大廚文──是大廚的文章(汗)

未經過原po同意就轉錄了，畢竟我實在不知道怎麼連絡大廚。
不過...有些國外鄉民已經把這篇大剌剌貼在討論區上了，
我想大廚光忙著告他們就來不及了，應該不會殺來批踢踢，
我就假裝大廚不會介意，冒昧地貼過來好了，
希望到時推文不要出現：噓 ImDavidCook:誰准妳轉的嗄？嗄？
之類的東西。

不知道各位記不記得之前我po過的，有關大廚有個絕症哥哥的八卦，
這是大廚前年寫的有關他哥哥的文章(來看看這個word nerd，
文筆是不是真的有很好？)

嗯希望亞當一切安好，很抱歉我之前誤認為你...。orz
(Adam Cook就是大廚吉他上"AC"所指的對象)

我覺得他現在這樣安安靜靜地不提這件事還滿好的啦，
人各有自己的難題，攤出來給大眾不一定適恰。
(我想到Kellie Pickler...她實在太悲情了。~__~)



Tuesday, September 19, 2006
By David Cook


An observation amidst the chaos...

So, I realize that I have neglected Xanga over the past year. I guess I just
didn't really feel like I had anything important to say. But recent events in
my life have given me the opportunity to re-evaluate my...for lack of a
less-epic term...existence. In order to explain it the right way, I have to
set up the premise...


◎ 欸我的英文閱讀能力其實沒有很好，有錯請指正...= =|||

這篇文章應該是在回應某個人吧，從開頭那段來看。
這段大概是說，最近(2006那時)他生活中發生了一些事，
讓他能重新衡量他自身的存在意義，然後開始談到底是什麼事。
(他自己也知道existence這個字用得不算淺...XD
雖然不是什麼big word但...)


In 1998, my older brother, Adam, was diagnosed with a brain tumor. Being as
how I had really just started to know him as a family member (separate story
...) I probably didn't take it as well as I could've. I remember being
convinced that my brother was going to die. It was a fucking brain tumor,
you know? After he beat it, I swore I would never take anyone's character
for granted. The courage he displayed is the most amazing thing I've ever
encountered, and since then, he's been the "prototype" for me. An example of
the person I could become.


◎ 1998年他哥得腦癌(瘤)，Being as how I had really just started to know him
as a family member這句牽涉到另一個故事，所以他沒有仔細解釋。
總之當時他們兄弟關係可能剛剛建立，可能剛剛好轉，可能...反正就是有了一些
改變了，他哥哥卻發生這樣的事情。然後亞當的勇敢給大廚一些點醒，
他更珍視身邊的人，也把他哥哥當成心中英雄。




So, no eight long years later, we're back in this scenario. A little older,
a little wiser, but still scared to death for him the way I was in '98.
This feeling of uncertainty mixed with this idea that I haven't progressed
nearly as much as I thought I had. I am aware that my concerns lie more with
Adam, Andrew, my Dad, etc., then they did last time. Call it selfish, and
maybe it was, but I was 16 years old, for christ's sake. The tumors have
spread to his spine, dangerously close to his spinal cord. He lost vision
for a few days. And for the first time in my life, my brother admitted he
was scared. It's hard maintaining composure when someone you care about says
that in the face of death, because it's admitting that there is this huge
blob of uncertainty about the whole thing.


◎ "I am aware that my concerns lie more with Adam, Andrew, my Dad, etc.,
then they did last time. Call it selfish, and maybe it was, but I was
16 years old, for christ's sake." 我跟t大都不太清楚他這段要表達什麼。= =+

這大段就是在講他哥病復發，然後亞當承認他很害怕，他承認自己害怕這件事，
讓大廚很沒安全感，一個role model的示弱往往隱喻某種崩毀這樣。



I also worry about Kendra and the kids. Kendra has been amazing through all
this, and I can honestly say that I couldn't do what she's done. And the
kids...oh, lord. the kids... they're the greatest thing that could've ever
happened to this family. To hear Adam talk about them is so cool. I worry
about them, too.


◎ 這邊很大愛，就是大廚很擔心他哥的太太跟小孩(沒講但我猜就是吧)
大廚應該滿愛他的侄子們的。


I know all this sounds really morose and pessimistic. It's not meant to be.
I'm forcing myself to maintain a cautiously optimistic demeanor about all
this. I owe Adam that. Hell, I owe this whole family that. But, it's hard.
It's hard seeing your role model suffering and having to deal with this
concept that they might not be around tomorrow. It's made me see everything
a little differently. What are my responsibilities as a son? A brother?
A boyfriend? A friend? Hell, what are my responsibilities to myself?


◎ 大廚並不想表現得憂鬱沉重，雖然很難熬但他還是想逼自己表現得正向，
然後他開始思考自己在生活中扮演的各個角色的職責跟意義


Please don't respond to this. That's not the point of this entry. I guess
I just needed to get some thoughts out on something, rather than carry them
around as excess weight. Besides, this is much easier than crying and not
advancing through life. As bad as I feel about the whole thing, I can't even
touch what Adam is going through, and what he's going to go through. Direct
chemotherapy to the brain. radiation. Everything's so unsure right now. All
I can say for sure, though.... regardless of what happens, He's the strongest
person I know. hands down.



◎ (懶得打字了XDDD)我想他打這篇就是發洩一下，也不希望大家覺得他背著什麼大包袱，
雖然他哥目前(2006)的情況不是很確定，他也無法親身去體驗他哥的病痛，
總之跟上段講的差不多，他重申他哥是他心中典範這樣。




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◆ From: 140.119.139.175
※ 編輯: stopthemob      來自: 140.119.139.175      (03/18 19:03)
推 tenoe:S大要不要簡單翻譯一下到底是甚麼事情...^^;
→ tenoe:我大概只看懂了 50-60%.....
→ stopthemob:總之就是大廚他哥1998年得到腦瘤，然後熬過去了，大廚
→ stopthemob:一直把他當成心中的典範，但後來他哥病又復發，然後
→ stopthemob:表示他非常害怕，大廚第一次聽到亞當這樣承認，心裡很
→ stopthemob:不好受這樣，總之就是在講他哥的事讓他思考了很多，
→ stopthemob:他也很擔心他哥的小孩(應該是吧，沒提是誰的小孩)
→ stopthemob:用推文講好亂喔　囧　希望我這樣推沒有很亂七八糟
推 tenoe:那為甚麼they called it selfish... 這個部分我看不懂...
→ tenoe:（這篇文章算是用了很多生字嗎? 好一個word nerd....）
→ stopthemob:被t大一點，我回頭看了一下那段，發現我也搞不懂他說
→ stopthemob:的自私是什麼意思，強烈建議高中英文課本選讀大廚文。
→ stopthemob:哪個英文強者幫忙解讀一下　囧.........
推 tenoe:那段，還有上下兩段應該是重點，但我看不懂 ><
→ tenoe:（感覺好像是閱讀測驗  完了我這樣拿不到分數 ><）
→ stopthemob:上一段(In 1998)大意是說，他哥當時抗癌過後，大廚因為
→ stopthemob:他哥的勇氣等，把他哥當成心中英雄，然後有稍微點到當
→ stopthemob:時他們的兄弟關係的轉變(他說那是另一個故事了SO沒講)
→ stopthemob:據本人在外國鄉民中探聽到的消息，大廚好像有個Step
→ stopthemob:sister，所以很有可能他家庭的組成沒有很單純|||
推 tenoe:（推S大，果然是正港大廚粉絲.....好專業....）
→ stopthemob:下一段(就是不知道在自私什麼的那段)也差不多，是講他
→ stopthemob:哥2006年的狀況，不過自私那段我的確不知道他在說什麼
推 tim2502:S大要不要直接修改內文阿 這樣推文有些麻煩吧:)
→ stopthemob:大廚，不要上AI了，轉換跑到去寫書吧= =..........
→ stopthemob:跑道(錯字)　好我改改看，但我英文沒很好有錯請指正><
※ 編輯: stopthemob      來自: 140.119.139.175      (03/18 20:03)
推 aides:大廚fan好認真喔XD 我改天也來爆小弟的料好了...(?)
→ stopthemob:不要顧讚嘆哪，快幫我們翻譯那段意義不明的文字...XD
→ ladyluck:真是認真的大廚迷啊
→ stopthemob:沒有人要幫忙解釋嘛XD
推 gjiove:  真是認真的大廚迷啊
推 ladyluck:因為不知怎麼解釋啊！我也看不懂那句
→ ladyluck:應該是說這次我比上次更擔心Adam Andrew和我老爸
→ ladyluck:說我（以前）自私吧！但那時候我才十六歲.....
→ stopthemob:ORZ
→ ladyluck:then應該是than吧！我想。
→ stopthemob:喔喔喔原來如此，但真的看起來好怪喔...
→ ladyluck:這樣我是不是也該來翻捲頭的心路歷程啊XDDDDDDD
→ ladyluck:they did的they是指大廚的concerns
→ stopthemob:大廚，你不要比什麼AI了，來南陽街開托福補習班吧。
→ stopthemob:我要看捲捲頭的心得～～(這就叫做，看AI練英文嗎？XD)
推 tenoe:喔喔  then改成than好像有比較出來了...之前完全不懂...
→ tenoe:如果大廚來開托福補習班，我要去報名，然後在下面點歌:P
→ stopthemob:我每次上課都要坐搖滾區(幻想)
推 ladyluck:才沒有力氣無料翻譯呢！XD 本溼奶以前翻譯是可以賺錢的
→ stopthemob:XDDDDDDDDD
推 ladyluck:迷哥迷姐真的很偉大XD
→ stopthemob:我是──迷˙妹(叉腰)
推 ladyluck:插個話問一下，托福現在是要考說嗎？XD
→ ladyluck:考過紙筆考過電腦很想去考那個有說的看看XD
→ stopthemob:我自己是還沒要考，但聽身邊有要考的人說，現在是聽說
→ stopthemob:讀寫都有了這樣(欸不要離題啊，好恐怖喔...)
→ ladyluck:我記得電腦考我最低分的部份是文法XDDDDDDDD
→ ladyluck:被其他同學笑死，因為正常人文法會最高 Orz
推 tenoe:（這個離題應該是還OK....托福能西斯到哪裡去 XD）
推 aides:有帶頭大哥在，不西斯也難XDDD
→ tenoe:（踹）
→ ladyluck:但是 g神尼不在，就沒有意思XD
推 aides:我常被t大暴力相向......好可憐喔ˊˋ 那大廚的哥現在怎樣?
→ ladyluck:應該就是跟病魔奮戰吧
→ stopthemob:啊災　Call in問大廚　讓他淚灑AI
→ aides:g神尼超酷XD 我每次只要想到她就會大笑XDD
→ stopthemob:g大超讚的XDDDDD
→ aides:stop大想看大廚哭哭嗎.....
→ ladyluck:大廚真的要小心太得意被Simon搞死:(
→ tenoe:不過如果真的哭了，應該會很感人吧!!
→ tenoe:a大乖~~~~~誰叫你每次都要把我拖下水 ><
→ stopthemob:越來越想讓他哭了.......
推 aides:你們好壞XDDDD 大廚哭的樣子......嗯 什麼美好的幻想XD
→ aides:牛肉蛋糕哭哭 我還覺得會比較加分 (我不是牛肉fan!!!)
→ stopthemob:建議廚嬸趁他哭哭時，發動溫情攻勢。
→ aides:是"沒"什麼美好的幻想!!!
→ tenoe:真的真的~~~~~ 牛肉蛋糕哭我應該會很高興 XDD
→ aides:廚嬸跟大廚間真是撲朔迷離啊 哪個八卦雜誌來爆一下嘛
→ stopthemob:ok啦，他看起來老這麼黑皮又滑稽(?)，哭一下很有效果
→ aides:牛肉蛋糕超適合哭哭 我搞不好會因此喜歡上他(咦!?)
推 tenoe:（握）
→ stopthemob:我覺得他可以嘗試去演戲耶，外型還不錯啊
→ stopthemob:我說牛肉蛋糕(我忘記他為什麼要叫牛肉蛋糕了||||)
→ ladyluck:牛肉蛋糕都走多久了還緬懷他喔？XD
推 aides:外型就是個奧蘭多布魯啊...XD 他好像想去百老匯?
→ ladyluck:Beefcake version of Orlando Bloom
→ stopthemob:原來如此
→ tenoe:牛肉蛋糕搞不好是這麼多季以來，最帥的一個吧 XDDD
→ ladyluck:沒錯，把Ace和驅魔神探都打敗XDDDDDD
推 aides:牛肉蛋糕不是我的菜 但是他上次被Simon罵的無辜表情很可愛..
→ tenoe:Ace 算甚麼 XDDDDD  不過牛肉蛋糕應該應該要和Ace學學.....
→ aides:Ace要出專輯了......
→ stopthemob:睡覺去，大家晚安XD→推文搞得跟個聊天室一樣...
→ stopthemob:大家真是太厲害了XDDD
推 tenoe:每次都這樣....明天早上要早點起床看啊....
推 aides:喔明天!!!!! 我不能馬上看 好Sad ˊˋ
推 nopeeking:科科，L師奶翻得真好