六月五日 星期二 晴
一陣慌亂，我在曼谷的市郊展開了新生活。
人的想法很容易變，一陣又一陣，昨夜想的可能就在短短幾小時的行囊整理中，或是長途
奔波跋涉中產生了變化。
星期五還在跟經理說不想結婚的當下，卻又在整理行囊時看著過往的日記和點點滴滴中改
變了想法：想要保護妳，想要和妳在一起一輩子的念頭不時縈繞著。可是卻又無能為力，
又有一大堆無所謂的堅持橫亙在眼前。在一起真的這樣難嗎？
我是還無法負責嗎？我又是想逃呢？戀愛好快樂，在一起有妳的撫摸著，我的心總是能平
靜下來，可是卻又總是短短地，讓人無法滿足地，妳就又離開了。
我們還能在一起地走下去嗎？我不想失去妳，卻又覺得我兩的付出就這樣停滯在這兒了。
妳能願意再等我兩年嗎？等待著未知，妳心裡的難受我也能知了，可是路就是這樣著選擇
，就是這樣地走著。對於未來能有把握的又有多少？似乎達到了我以前想要的目標？就是
一種比較曲折的路，卻又一直或許是在我的淺意識理作祟？I don't know，但我真正得到
的又是多少？妮妮，please tell me the reason or show me the tender love so
that we can keep walking on this mutual suffering road.
Let's you guess, what date is today?
You asked me from N.Y via G-mail, and I had an instant instinct that that was
the night, we caressed each other and comforted each other's lonely heart. We
were lonely and were not understood. Two scattered hearts held together
tightly, to the deep inside of the other. Shall you regret? Shall I regret?
No, at least, I won't. I remember the wonderful night, while we embraced each
other so tightly, so tightly as if the end of the day would came.
I miss you, my M.
There is the other ex-M, hearing your voice through the other end of the
phone. You did cry resulting from the stress of your schoolwork. I bet it
will be alright. No need to worry and hold on. I had an eager to see you, to
see your face. Are you forever young? Because your young vivid face and
crystal smile scarred my memory forever. I will remember you, your youth and
my past passion.,
開始著異鄉的生活，今天就像是個偷來的Holiday，有了弼任的音樂，我的心情可以說是
在篤定也不過了。
To Be Continued……………
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Too long a sacrifice
Can make a stone of the heart
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How much may it suffice ?
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