In my life, ok, I should add "so far" (if you ever watch <<The Simpsons>>,
u would know y), I only have one diary written by hand.
It is strange that I could never find it during e past 2 years.
Emmm, maybe I do know the reason. Or, maybe I just don't wan to mention the
truth.
Actually the importance is that I found it somewhere last week.
Although I was damn busy these days, I spent more than one hour to read the
"thing" (actually i wan put "shit", but forget abt it).
It is reali mass in there, n I can not believe it's created by me. Y?
Everything there is so positive n would let me be sure that I was definitely
leading a "sunshine" childhood. Maybe that time was already not a child le,
but I wish it was.
I can see I have already changed a lot these years. It means "grow up"?
Let it go to e hell.
Many ppl wan pretend that they could see other ppl's heart. It is so stupid
n I also do it many times, but I wish I don't have to do it.
Ya, I always do things say words and pretend to feel that others could not
see what I reali wan to do or what I reali wan to chill out like now.
In the end, I was adult by myself. Am I reali happy or am I reali angry?
I don't know.
It seems my life become "raining" day as weather here is reali like so.
Last month, dear Mom come, she said that: when u feel others changed a lot,
dont forget u also changed a lot.
I feel a little bit sad when i heard this. Not be'coz of me. I juz thought
that, i never stay with my mom around 4 yrs n when muz be the period that i
maight change the most, from my body to my heart. I feel veri sad.n I think
so did my Mom.
I think many ppl wan e time can reverse. I dont wan, although my childhood was
gold colour. Dont ask me y, 'coz i dont wan think abt it.
In my diary, I wrote: dont do anything will let me feel regret in future;
n dont feel regret of doing anything.
I think I never break my rule, so far.
That nite, after reading my past words, I had a dream. I saw a lot of ppl,
whom i like, whom i hate... I dont think they all are important to me, since
i believe dream will not come true if i still remember it after wake up.
haha, actually, i m reali like what ppl say abt me: u only believe what u say,
n u always change what u said.
It is real, for me?
I wish nobody could tell me the ans until i ***.
n, of 'coz, it will not come true.
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