※ 引述《mindfuck (真情)》之銘言：
: I am studying my MA now.
: The point is, I took up the offer
: to stdudy in the different field from my college last year.
: It did not undergo thorough consideration as it comes to switch to a new field
: I majored English in my collge.
: Now, however, I study Business Administration, which always makes me
: feel I am not really into this field. I do not regret that I chose business
: filed because I know that some day I will work in this field.
: Frankly speaking, I did not take many classes that are related to business
: field in my college years. I thought it was hard and time-consuming
: to take those classes.
I also switched to quite different field in my master. I switched from
computer science to a more biology related field. Technically it was
inter-disciplinary, but it was still difficult, especially when I didn't
regard myself to be good in computer science either. Boy I felt like
a complete moron for nearly a year. The knowledge gap was huge. It was
also hard to catch up some basic knowledge when you were not under formal
basic training. And as a master, you usually don't have a chance, as
you're expected to complete some higher goals. For half a year I had
completely no idea what our laboratory was doing. Even now (I am in PHD
program now), I am still pretty clueless on a lot of stuffs. Partly
because I still haven't gone through the training required, and the other
reason is I lost some of the interest in certain area. Biologists and
computer science people have vastly diffierent kind of mindsets in
working toward the same goal. I came in trying to understand that,
and I came out understanding myself better on the type of approach I prefer
to take in my research.
: Now, however, I deeply have a thought in mind that I
: should have attended several of these courses. Never would I know
: in the past that I will become sorry that I did not take
: those courses when I enter this new field in the future.
Oh, there was often no way to know that beforehand so you should not
regret what you couldn't have possibly foresaw. :)
: I feel like a mute. I can not take up my courage to speak out. I have a strong
: feeling that I am not good enough and may get bad feedback from my classmates.
I can imagine how your situation would be like, at least I am in a
inter-disciplinary field and there are others like me. Yours is a bigger
leap.
I don't know about other fields, but ours has this class called a seminar
in which students have to present a publication in class. Professors
often encourage us to speak out and ask questions. But in my master years
I hardly ever did. If I didn't understand anything the speaker said, I
couldn't ask any questions! Even if I did have question, it might be stupid.
One of the prof. often encourages us to ask question and says, "there is
no dumb question," which I replied once with "but there are dumb people".
(joke)
Anyway, I would be very afraid to ask any question to anyone in your
situation. But you know it's better to act dumb now then later.
: Since I entered this field, I gradually feel that my confidence is fading
: away with the passage of time.
Oh..same here. It's like, maybe this is not my type of vegetable! =(
Sometimes I felt my computer science is worse than other biologist. That's
the worst of all...It's like I should give myself two years to do nothing
but read books. It takes some time before things clear up more. At least
you'll have a broader reach comparing to other classmates in college.
: Now, the first year of my MA is going to be very near to the end.What have I
: learned? What have I become as I wish myself to be?
: The last thing, I need more time to learn how to cooperate with others
: and how to think more broadly. I prefer to do things all by myself.
You just have to keep on hanging there to get what you want. Be active
and seek out.
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