[情報] 前妻貓王之女發表了感言

[yiersan (一二三)]

Lisa Marie說14年前MJ跟她聊她爸死因時預言自己也會那樣死 (prescription drugs)

還有她因為感到無法改變MJ感到巨大的壓力 導致她提出離婚 但她一直愛著他

如果有人可以整片翻譯更好

她的blog如下

http://tinyurl.com/l54btw



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He Knew.

Years ago Michael and I were having a deep conversation about life in
general.

I can't recall the exact subject matter but he may have been questioning me
about the circumstances of my Fathers Death.

At some point he paused, he stared at me very intensely and he stated with an
almost calm certainty, "I am afraid that I am going to end up like him, the
way he did."

I promptly tried to deter him from the idea, at which point he just shrugged
his shoulders and nodded almost matter of fact as if to let me know, he knew
what he knew and that was kind of that.

14 years later   I am sitting here watching on the news an ambulance leaves
the driveway of his home, the big gates, the crowds outside the gates, the
coverage, the crowds outside the hospital, the Cause of death and what may
have led up to it and the memory of this conversation hit me, as did the
unstoppable tears.

A predicted ending by him, by loved ones and by me, but what I didn't predict
was how much it was going to hurt when it finally happened.

The person I failed to help is being transferred right now to the LA County
Coroners office for his Autopsy.

All of my indifference and detachment that I worked so hard to achieve over
the years has just gone into the bowels of hell and right now I am gutted.

I am going to say now what I have never said before because I want the truth
out there for once.

Our relationship was not "a sham" as is being reported in the press. It was
an unusual relationship yes, where two unusual people who did not live or
know a "Normal life" found a connection, perhaps with some suspect timing on
his part. Nonetheless, I do believe he loved me as much as he could love
anyone and I loved him very much.

I wanted to "save him" I wanted to save him from the inevitable which is what
has just happened.

His family and his loved ones also wanted to save him from this as well but
didn't know how and this was 14 years ago. We all worried that this would be
the outcome then.

At that time, In trying to save him, I almost lost myself.

He was an incredibly dynamic force and power that was not to be
underestimated.

When he used it for something good, It was the best and when he used it for
something bad, It was really, REALLY bad.

Mediocrity was not a concept that would even for a second enter Michael
Jackson's being or actions.

 I became very ill and emotionally/ spiritually exhausted in my quest to save
him from certain self-destructive behavior and from the awful vampires and
leeches he would always manage to magnetize around him.

I was in over my head while trying.

I had my children to care for, I had to make a decision.

The hardest decision I have ever had to make, which was to walk away and let
his fate have him, even though I desperately loved him and tried to stop or
reverse it somehow.

After the Divorce, I spent a few years obsessing about him and what I could
have done different, in regret.

Then I spent some angry years at the whole situation.

At some point, I truly became Indifferent, until now.

As I sit here overwhelmed with sadness, reflection and confusion at what was
my biggest failure to date, watching on the news almost play by play The
exact Scenario I saw happen on August 16th, 1977 happening again right now
with Michael (A sight I never wanted to see again) just as he predicted, I am
truly, truly gutted.

Any ill experience or words I have felt towards him in the past has just died
inside of me along with him.

He was an amazing person and I am lucky to have gotten as close to him as I
did and to have had the many experiences and years that we had together.

I desperately hope that he can be relieved from his pain, pressure and
turmoil now.

He deserves to be free from all of that and I hope he is in a better place or
will be.

 I also hope that anyone else who feels they have failed to help him can be
set free because he hopefully finally is.

   The World is in shock but somehow he knew exactly how his fate would be
played out some day more than anyone else knew, and he was right.





I really needed to say this right now, thanks for listening.


~LMP

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作者: bowlbone (The Kids Are Alright) 看板: KingofPop
標題: 他知道的 --- Lisa Presley在MySpace的留言
時間: Sat Jun 27 19:14:24 2009




                       他知道的

              Lisa Marie Presley, 2009/06/26




多年前，麥可和我曾深談人生的議題。

我難以回想歷歷細節，但他似乎曾問及我父親過世時的景況。

有一度，突然他不說話了。然後深深地看著我，接著以堅定而極其平靜的語
氣說：「恐怕哪一天我也會那樣走了，就像妳爸爸。」

我連忙打斷他的念頭，但他只是聳聳肩、點點頭，好像只是讓我知道，他知
道自己在說些什麼。

十四年後的我，坐在這看著新聞裡一輛救護車駛出他家的車道，雄偉的大門
、大門外的群眾、頭條新聞、醫院外的群眾、死因...，這一切帶我回到那
次的對話，一時間回憶襲來，讓我淚流不止。

這是他自己、他的愛人和我都心裡有數的結局，卻沒想到，終究成真的時候
，令人何等地心碎。

我無緣相助的人現在正轉送到LA County Coroners準備相驗遺體。

而多年來努力試圖彌平的冷漠與隔閡，就此埋入地下，此刻的我，整個人像
被淘空了一般。

我想說點以前從未講過的事情。我要真相，就這麼一次。

麥可和我的關係不是報章雜誌上所稱的「假像」（"a sham"）那樣。是，我
倆關係誠然不尋常，兩個本來就不是過著所謂「尋常生活」（"Normal life"）
的人，搭上了線，在那個時間點對他有所猜疑也可想而知。即便如此，我真
切地確信，他愛我猶如他愛任何人那樣多，而我也深愛著他。

我想救他、救他，從這眼前發生如宿命般的情景。

十四年前，他的家人和愛人也都想救他，卻不知如何才好。我們都同樣擔憂
這樣下去的後果。

在那時，為了救他，我幾乎也賠上了自己。

他是一股沛然莫之能禦的力量，令人難以想像，不容低估。

當他用在對的地方，他就是最好的；用在錯的地方，那就會，真的、真的很
糟。

Michael Jackson這個人，絲毫容不下平凡這種形容詞。

在努力將他從自毀行為、揮之不去的吸血鬼們中拉出來的過程中，我變得疲
憊、身心俱疲。

超出我的能耐了。

我有小孩要照顧，我得下決定。

決定最難在於，我得就此離開，讓他的命運歸他自己的，即便我還那麼那麼
愛他，終究得結束而自一切退開...。

離婚以後，幾年裡我仍陷溺於他的回憶，想著是不是有別的辦法，一直懊悔。

就這樣過了好幾年憤懣的日子。

就某些方面來說，我真的走出來了--- 直到現在。

當我徒坐在這，因這畢生中最大的挫敗所帶來的悲傷、困惑、回憶而深深淹
沒，看著新聞一再一再重覆播放我曾親見1977年8月16日所發生的、而麥可
所預知的情節時（那是我永遠不想再見到的景況），我感到非常地、非常地
無力。

我心底所有往日對他感到不愉快的經驗、話語，隨著他的過世，也都死了。

他是那麼樣一個讓人驚嘆的人物，而我曾有幸如此親炙他，一起走過這麼多
的回憶與歲月。

我由衷期望，他就此從那些痛楚、壓力、混亂而解脫。

他應得自由，我期望他往更好的地方去了。一定會的。

我也期望任何自覺沒有幫上他忙的人，也都從而赦免自己，我相信他也是這
麼想的。

世界為此事而震驚，但他比任何人都更早知道今天的景況。看來，他對了。

此時我必須說出這些，謝謝你的聆聽。


~LMP





http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.ListAll&friendId=42291868

翻譯： bowlbone, 2009/06/27
      （修正二版）


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※ 編輯: bowlbone        來自: 122.116.216.202      (06/27 19:19)
推 carlobay:翻的好!!我還沒翻完 不過你翻的比我更言簡意賅!!
推 yiersan:thanks 希望這篇能轉到數字版讓更多人認識真的MJ
推 kimlin:對啊  我先自行刪除我剛十分鐘亂翻的版本 甘溫~
推 alyce:Mediocrity was not a concept that would even for a
→ alyce:second enter Michael Jackson's being or actions.
→ alyce:的意思好像比較接近: "平庸"這個概念連一秒也不會進入MJ的
→ alyce:腦中或行動裡  (抱歉 沒潤飾過  直接翻)
→ alyce:意思是 MJ是極端的人 不會接受中庸的概念 而這個特質 用在好
→ alyce:的地方威力很大 但用在負面的地方 情況就會很糟 意指他14年
→ alyce:前對自己人生的看法 而Lisa沒辦法幫助他改變想法
→ bowlbone:謝謝alyce 如果原句「不存在」處換成「容不下」呢？
※ 編輯: bowlbone        來自: 122.116.216.202      (06/28 02:14)
推 carlobay:His family and his loved ones also wanted to save him
推 carlobay:from this as well but didn't know how and this was 14
→ carlobay:years ago.直接翻好像是家人跟愛人也想幫他只是14年前不
→ carlobay:知該怎麼幫???? 我這翻法可以嗎?? > <
推 Sevorlaga:請問是誰翻譯的  我要感謝他  很棒!!!
※ 編輯: bowlbone        來自: 122.116.216.202      (06/28 15:07)
→ bowlbone:謝謝carlobay的意見 已修正 也謝謝Sevorlaga對這篇趕出
→ bowlbone:來的譯文的感謝 這是我對Michael Jackson致敬的方式...
推 subaru:翻的很棒