對於往事我們有沒有一個比較好的態度呢？我是說，所謂一貫的而不失
誠實的原則，來面對繁複瑣碎又衝突矛盾的自己。那樣的斷裂在好多地方
都是這樣地顯而易見而令人傷感，有時候會發現，那斷裂的切口往往不在
某個節日、某個生日、或者某個新年，而是某張專輯。
阿，我已經再也沒有辦法那樣專注聆聽著Liam Gallagher的嗓音聽到感
動地毛骨悚然了。我曾經聽著「wonderwall」起床，在那聲音中心滿意足
地吃早餐；聽著「wonderwall」讀著惱人的歷史年代，用青春的苦澀和唱
片對抗自以為的殘酷現實；聽著「wonderwall」和女朋友講電話，覺得喪
氣或者思念滿溢的時候總是記得那句「You gotta be the one that
saves me , you are my wonderwall....」，那個冬天好像特別地艱難，
18歲的我身邊總有各式各樣哀傷的理由，大概是這個原因所以也才離不開
Liam的聲音：
「You gotta be the one saves me ,
and after all , you are my wonderwall........」
不知道到底是誰拯救得了我，不知道誰是我的wonderwall。好像只有在
那個密閉不通風的小書房裡迴盪著聲音的場景才能救得了我，從永遠也沒
有盡頭的各式各樣困惑與感傷中暫時脫身：從窗口望出去的灰暗的城市，
每天一樣的上學路線和苦悶，永遠也不瞭解到底在想什麼的女朋友....就
是這樣地層層疊砌起來灰色天空。「wonderwall」不是忽然可以照亮大地
的救贖陽光，卻是一把抵擋漫長雨季的小傘。所以到最後我還是沒找到我
的wonderwall，或者說，在我找到之前我就跨過了那一個時代了。
我用一種像是回頭的心情放起「wonderwall」，我找到了....什麼也沒
有。連哀傷或者苦澀都沒有，因為記憶太單薄，一張張的綠洲的唱片和單
曲堆疊起來像是一道wonderwall堅固地護衛住那個冬季，我難以返回，像
是忘記了一般。
【Lyrics】
Today is gonna be the day
That they're gonna throw it back to you
By now you should have somehow
Realised what you gotta do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do about you now
Backbeat the word is on the street
That the fire in your heart is out
I'm sure you've heard it all before
But you never really have a doubt
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do about you now
And all the roads we have to walk are winding
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
There are many things that I would
Like to say to you
But I don't know how
Because maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
And after all
You're my wonderwall
I said maybe
You gonna be the one that saves me
You gonna be the one that saves me
You gonna be the one that saves me
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