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Posted by Shinmi on May 8th, 2003
[[MAGAZINE]] I LOVE STAR, December 1997.
"I am the main character in my life!!" ~by So Ji Sub,
1997 -Quitting Modeling, “Ready Go” TV personality So Ji Sub-
I, So Ji Sub, debuted as a model for the Fashion Catalogue <292513=STORM> and
as an actor in the SBS-TV drama “Model.”. I am presently working on the
opening scenes for the MBC-TV Youth Drama “Ready Go.” Until now, I had been
working as an unpolished model, giving unpolished performances. But now, I am
in the process of coming up with a So Ji Sub STYLE. What would I like to hear
people say? “Indeed, that’s So Ji Sub. That character would not have been
possible without him.”
※-SELF INTRODUCTION
I have a healthy physique, but my personality is introverted, and rather than
bright, I have many dark corners which leaves such gloomy impressions of
myself. Right now, I am working hard in trying to change that and make my
personality brighter. Since exercising was all I knew, I may be really
ignorant(?) but still, in so many ways, I am a fine man!!
※-PERSONAL DREAMS
Really, without kidding, would you believe me if I tell you I always wanted
to become an ordinary white-collar worker? The most I would dream of was to
open a Sports Center one day, if that can be considered a dream. I was
interested in modeling, but I had never thought this would actually happen to
me. And right now, my dream is to succeed as an actor. Working for the drama
“Model” was important since it gave me a basic foundation in acting.
Through that, I was able to experience what acting is all about. This being
my first time acting, I was really worried that I kept on reading the script
again and again, so much that the paper got all scrappy and old. However,
once filming started, my mouth would not open. This got worse if I had to
speak looking straight in the eyes of my co-casts. Who acted as my older
sister? Wasn’t she the famous super star Kim Nam Joo sunbae (older
colleague)? The same thing happened with Jang Dong Gun sunbae and Han Jae
Suck sunbae. How would I have dared to look straight into their eyes? This is
how I started this drama, but while monitoring my own acting I was so
embarrassed I had to watch it by myself, hiding from others. “That guy over
there, is that really me? I really look like a fool.” I had thought to myself
… I think it was a good experience since it taught me how to become part of
the surrounding with body and soul. Nevertheless, I cannot be satisfied with
that. Right now, I want to challenge myself into real acting, as a real
actor. No more try outs, once is enough, and I don’t want people to label me
as a newbie anymore. My dream is to get rid off the title of an inexperienced
beginner and thus stand as a recognized actor.
※-WHAT YOU DESIRE MOST RIGHT
NOW What I have learned while acting has to do with my self-confidence. I
have always been lacking of it. I know that if you have too much confidence,
you can appear to be arrogant and rude. That’s why what I need is just the
right amount of confidence that can boost me without hurting others. I am
about to start a new drama soon but this is very different than the previous
“Model” where my lines were overshadowed by so many big names. In the youth
drama “Ready Go,” which will be performed by a young cast, I need to
concentrate more on the lines. I haven’t been able to fully understand my
character yet but since this is a drama that pays attention to each character
individually, I feel this will help me in building my confidence. Right at
this very moment, what I really want is to have the right amount of
confidence, in order to act well, so that I can do my best for my new role.
-A PAST LIKE HELL I really had a tough time during my High School years. Back
then, all I thought about was how on earth will I be able to survive this
hell? I am the only male figure at home. In a household without a father, I
had always felt an unspoken responsibility living with my mother and older
sister. Neither my mother nor my sister ever pressured me in any ways, but I
had always felt a heavy burden on my shoulders. I knew nothing but sports,
and yet the days seem to be going by so routinely and pointlessly. I saw no
way of escape from that. The fact that I was able to get out of such hellish
situation is due mostly to my fighting spirit and to my mother’s trust. My
mother was always a strong supporter of anything I did, and she would never
check on me nor would she get disappointed. Right now I am confident I can
support my home the way I was supposed to. I have lost some weigh so far.
After exercising for 11 years I had taken a break because of modeling and
acting, and unawares I have grown heavier. Thinking that I should take care
of myself as an actor, and that I have to overcome my weaknesses helped me.
The following also helped me strive harder. Not wanting to go through another
hell like experience, where my life may take undesired turns, I decided to
discipline myself and go through a severe self-training.
※-THE MOST REGRETTABLE EXPERIENCE WHILE ACTING
It was during the Premier Show of the
drama “Model.” I surely came out in the first 2 episodes of the drama, but
I couldn’t attend the Premier Show. No one had invited me. That felt bad, or
even worse than that. That feeling was closer to sorrow. Since there were so
many famous stars in the drama, the role which I was playing was so small at
first that the producers may have overlooked me. But this was why I was hurt
all the more. I was not hurt by anyone in particular. I was just feeling so
insignificant carrying the title of a newbie. Nevertheless, I decided to move
on and to forget my hurt feelings. I felt it was too early for me to expect
so much while I haven’t even built a base. Instead of being suddenly cast as
the main character from the beginning and being in the spot light, I’d
rather walk up the ladder one step at a time. And thus I will stand on center
stage. Only if I understand how hard it is to walk up that road, will I be
able to stimulate my hoobaes (the younger generation) and be a friend without
self-conceit. After having built such diverse experiences, I think I’ll have
the freedom to become a better actor.
※-WAS IT YOUR CHOICE TO BECOME AN ACTOR? OR WAS IT PROVIDENCE?
I get this question a lot. Before becoming a Stomp
Catalogue model, I had a friend aspiring to become a model. He found an ad
from Stomp Catalogues about an opening there so all I did was to go along
with him in sending my application. The end of the story is always the same.
My friend who really wanted failed, and I who was tagging along without much
thought, got in. Of course, since I could start acting only because of
modeling, that small incident has now become important. And the friend who
failed is now studying music and closely monitoring my acting. Until now,
destiny has taken me through many extremes. This is not what I had longed for
before, but I can see the boundaries are changing before my eyes, and I feel
this may be the providence from above. However, I will not continue thinking
this is ‘heaven’s providence’ or ‘destiny’ and stop right there. I still
haven’t figure out who I am, but the road I must take is set, be it a clean
asphalt or a dusty and muddy road. Whichever it is, I will walk up that road
with my own efforts. Even if I grow tired while walking, I won’t borrow
someone else’s car. I may have to break a tree and use it as my clutch, and
the night may come while I rest, but I won’t depend on the good fortune
anymore, nor will I let others carry me. I am the main character of my life!!
※放棄當模特兒..."Ready go"電視魅力的蘇志燮"
我, 蘇志燮, 從初次擔任品牌<292513=STORM>的服裝模特兒和參演SBS-TV劇集<天橋>的演
員。。我目前正為 MBC-TV 青春劇 "Ready go" 演出。工作直至現在,我從以前一個未經
磨琢的模特兒帶著生澀的表現。但現在, 我在兌變的過程中漸成為一個有著"蘇志變”個
性的演員。我喜歡听別人說什么的話呢? 「恩~對了, 就是蘇志變了。那個角色萬萬怎能
不是由他來演的。」
※"自我介紹"
我有健康体格, 但我的個性是很內向,甚至不是很開朗的, 我有很多黑暗的角落讓人對我
留下憂鬱的印象。現在, 我很努力的設法去改變人們對我的印象和使自己的個性更加開朗
活潑。只有運動是我最有把握的事情, 我也許實在不懂人情世故或許現在仍然如此, 但從
許多方面來說, 我是一個好人!!
※"個人夢想"
真實的, 沒有欺騙大家,如果我告訴你們…你們相信我是希望成為一個普通的白領上班族?
而我最大的夢想是有一天能開一座体育中心, 如果這個能列為是夢想的話。我當模特兒工
作是感興趣的,實際上, 但我從未想過這會發生在我身上。但如今, 我的夢想是能夠成功
轉變成為演員。 能演出"天橋" 是很重要的，因為它給了我一個對演技很基本的根基。通
過它, 我能体驗演戲是什么的一回事。這是我的第一次的演出, 我真的很擔心，我不斷的
一次又一次的???本, ?使?本的紙?得很?和有些支離破碎的。
但是, 一旦拍??始, 我的嘴巴卻不懂得要打?。而且更糟的是如果我必?望?前輩?的眼睛和
他????白。是?人飾演我的姐姐? 她不就是著名超?明星金南珠前輩 ? 同?地張?健前輩和?
載碩前輩?我怎么敢那么地直接望向他?的眼睛? ?劇是我如何?始了演?事?, 但?我必?看?
自己的演出我是?到如此困窘的。我必???人中掩藏自己然後??兒?看先前的演出。「那?人
在那裡, ??是真?的我嗎? 我真的看起?很象傻瓜。」 我想?... 我???是?好好的??因為它
教曉我怎么用身体和?魂融入周遭的環境。然而, 我?此?法感到?意。?在, 我想要挑?自己
真正的演技, 成?一位真正的演?。不需要再多的??, 一次便足?了, 而且我不再希望?人?
纖我?新晉演?。我的?想是摘下那?標記?亳???的新手的??和成為一位被?同的演?。
"什么是你?在渴望的"
我??了?要演戲時必??自己有自信。我?是缺乏??的自信。我也知道如果
你有過多的自信, ??讓人感覺你很是傲慢和粗?。?是為何我需要的只是具有適量的信心能
不?害其他人下而提昇自己。我??很快?始演出新劇但?次比早先的"天橋" 是非常不同的類
型在"天橋"裡我的部分給?多鼎鼎大名的演?所蓋過。在青春劇"Ready go"?由一些年?演員
合演, 我的戲份需要更集中在主要劇情?展上。我尚未充分地了解我的角色但因??劇將?是
把注意力??地投注在各??立的角色上面, 我想????助我好好建立我的自信心。在??非常時
刻, 真正的我想要的是具有適?自信心, ?了有好的演出, ?我要演譯的新角色我能做到最
好。
"過去日子如像地獄"
我的高中?月那是我過的最艱苦困難的時期。回到那?, 我的所
有心思就是儘力???糟透了的地?如何生存下?? 我是家中唯一的男人。在一?家庭?有父?,
与我的母?和姐姐住在一起我?感?身附有不能言喻的?任。?絕不是因為我的母?或是我的姐
姐曾?給予我任何?力, 但我?感?重大的??扛在我的肩膀上。我什么也不曉得但只懂得体育
, 日子似乎仍然是那?乏味和?意?的?去。我知道?法讓我逃避的。事?我能离???的地?似徊
情?主要是靠?自己的?斗的意志和我?母?的信任。無論做什么我的母??是我最?的支持者,
而且她?不?疑惑或是?我感到失望。?在我确信能用我所想要的方式去支持我的家。 我減
去了一些體重。在我運?了11 年的時?因為?始了模特兒和演戲的工作我終於歇下來了 。
我想我要專注成?一位演?, 而且必?克服我的弱?確??助了我。接下來也可?助我如何更?苦
的努力。不想再次??另一次人間地?, 我的生活也?再次有一次意想不到的轉變, 我?定好
好的磨?自己和??的自我鍛?。
"最?憾的演出??"
?是?生在<天橋>首次公演記者?。" 我肯
定?在劇中第一、二集出?, 但我並不能?加??首次公演記者? 。因為?人邀?我。那感?很糟
, 甚至比糟還更甚。那种感?是接近傷悲。由於有?多著名明星演出, 而我只充?一?小角色
因此監製?忽略了我的存在。但?也是?何我更加有受?的感?。而我並不是因為特定的人而
受?害。我只是感?自己地位卑微、微不足道的??新演?的??。然而, 我?定提升自己和忘
???傷痛的感?。?是自己過早期望能得到太多,甚至還未建立好自己最初的根基。 比起一
出道粉墨登場就要?演重要角色, 我更期望以自己的力量，一步步爬上階梯，到達舞台中
央，雖然知道爬上樓梯是多麼的費力，但我仍希望，以後有機會，可以作為鼓勵後進的前
輩，不會是自滿、自傲的朋友，更可成為有各種生活體驗的好演員！以后建立各式各?的
??, 我想我能成?一位更好的演?。
"?是自己??成為演?? 抑或是天意?"
????我被?起了很
多次。在成? Storm的模特兒, 我有一?朋友很想成?模特兒。他??一?招?模特兒的?告為了
陪他一起去面試因此我也寄出申請書。故事的?尾?是如此的吧。我的朋友渴望得到的,失?
了, 而那??沒有太多想法的, 成功了。 ?然, 我因為<天橋>而?始演戲, 而?在?些小事件?
得重要起來。那?面試失?了的朋友?在正在??音?和?督?我的演技。直到?在, 命?把我帶到
?多不同的境況。??不是之前我所渴望得到的, 但我卻能看?在我眼前所改?的分界線, 感
到?也?是來自天意吧。但是, 我不?持?想??是來自'天堂'的天意或是'命?'。我仍然不能
看穿、睇透自己是一?怎?的人, 但我要走的路巳被確定, 不管?路是干?的柏油之路, 或是
一?多灰?和泥泞的路。無論是哪一條, 我?以我自己的努力走向??路。即使?走?時我的疲
乏增?, 我也不?借用?人的汽?。我也?得把?折?在關鍵時刻使它成為自己的依靠, 或是在
黑夜?臨時成為棲身的地方, 但我不?再依?好?气, 亦不??其他事物主宰自己。我是自己生
活裡的重要角色!!
**Translated by Priscilla (Soompi)
(轉自燮心論壇)
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