4st 7lb
"I eat too much to live and not enough to stay alive. I'm just sitting in
the middle, waiting." ?Days since I last pissed ?cheeks sunken and despaired ?
so gorgeous sunk to six stone ?lose my only remaining home ?see my third rib
appear ?a week later all my flesh disappear ?stretching taut, cling-film on
bone ?I'm getting better ?Karen says I've reached my TARGET weight ?Kate and
Emma and Kristin know it's fake ?problem is diet's not a big enough word ?I
wanna be so skinny that I rot from view ?I want to walk in the snow ?and not
leave a footprint ?I want to walk in the snow ?and not soil its purity ?
stomach collapsed at five ?lift up my skirt my sex is gone ?naked and lovely
and 5st. 2 ?may I bud and never flower ?my vision's getting blurred ?but I
can see my rib's and I feel fine ?my hands are trembling stalks ?and I can
feel my breasts are sinking ?mother tries to choke me with roast beef ?and
sits savouring her sole Ryvitta ?that's the way your built my father said ?
but I can change, my cocoon shedding ?I want to walk in the snow ?and not
leave a footprint ?I want to walk in the snow ?and not soil its purity ?Kate
and Kristin and Kit Kat ?all things I like looking at ?too weak to fuss, too
weak to die ?choice is skeletal in everybody's life ?I choose, my choice, I
starve to frenzy ?hunger soon passes and sickness soon tires ?legs bend,
stockinged I am Twiggy ?and I don't mind the horror that surrounds me ?
self-worth scatters, self esteem's a bore ?I long since moved to a higher
plateau ?this discipline's so rare so please applaud ?just look at the fat
scum who pamper me so ?yeh 4st. 7, an epilogue of youth ?such beautiful dignity
in self-abuse ?I've finally come to understand life ?through staring blankly
at my navel.
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