tonight... it's a sad night for me...
dont know if I should called it as a sad night or as it's too late.....
got a call from a girlfriend, Lily... what I heard from the moment I picked up the call... her crying... I was so worry about her... kept asking what's wrong... she kept saying... it's too late~ it's too late~... I was totally had no idea what she talked about... after she calmed a bit... she told me the man she love passed away...
the man that she never told him she loves him...
the man who makes her world...
the man who grab her every thoughts & mind...
the man who named Chris!
I know this man and gal since I was a 6-year-old kid... since I had my memory... he is her hero... he is the one who always being her protector...
on the 10 something... nothing can made him happy but her sweet innocent pure smile... he helped her do math homework... she comforted him when he felt upset...
on the 15 something... he fight for someone wanted take advantage of her... she cheered for his every football games and support whatever he wanted to do...
on the 20 something...
things got different....
he became that kind of outstanding... he changed... he didnt protect her anymore... he didnt contact with her often but he really in hopeless mood... he loved to be around by his admires... forgot his goal he made since he was a child... he changed lot... this man from these friends' eyes is a nobody but a punk... and she?! she still stayed beside him... even though she knows... she wasnt important to him anymore... somehow for her... he is still her hero... the one and the only... for her... he is her
everything...
when he was down...
she took care of him... listened to his complained anything he thought not fair to him... cheered him up... even she knew... she might means nothing to him...
when he was up...
she just stood far away feel happy for him... turned around said nothing... walked home lonely with a bit sorrow... from the bottom of her heart... that's enough... she thought...
she never asked anything returned... watched him dance with his new married bride... she wore smile to pretend she didnt care about him anymore... but at that heart-breaking night... she got totally drunk and cried like a part of her heart being cut... we hugged her... cried with her... she cried for her losing... we cried for her silly...
after he bankrupting... his wife divorced him... and took away his everything... she was the one who took him home... took care of him... showed him how to get his life back... we thought he can finally understood how much she loves him... we were happy for her... we believed her love was coming right this time...
but who knows...
it's too late......
he got killed by an accident on his way home from his job interview... the mail he wrote to her which left on the car... is the last thing he left to her... he wrote...
you complete me... I love you...
he has no chances to say it to her in person... and she has no more chances to tell him i love you either...
she told me sadly... she never told him she loves him... since they were kids... since the first time they met... since she took him as her hero... she kept saying on the phone... do you know how much I love him.. but it's too late~ too late~ I would take anything to make him back... even just tell him I love him...
have you ever think... maybe we are too chicken to tell someone we really do love him/her... or how much we care about him/her... maybe we both hurt each other too much...?! life is too short... since I lost my two best friends... I do believe life has to be no regret... maybe some of them or some of my family, my friends will think something I do are so stupid... why I am wasting my time to those crap, useless things... maybe some ppl will feel sorry for me about what I give up... as for me... I have
no regret for what I did... no matter what it comes out... at least I have tried it... even I cant reach my goal... at least I have worked on it... do you still have anything not done yet?! still have something wanna tell someone?! afterall... we tried it... isnt it?! when our time is coming... when the time we have to say good-bye to our love family and friends... we can smile with no regret.. isnt it?! I believe in this way... dont know what you guys think... :)
life is too short to regret... just go for it...
you belongs to your successes...
in career or in relationship... in anything... whatever you want...
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