My Mistake
I look up and see you've gone,
not realizing if I lost or won.
All I know is what I want to believe,
you just can't leave.
As I cry these lonely tears,
I realize all my fears.
I'm afraid to love you..
Isn't it obvious with all I do?
When you talk to me.
I gaze in space,
I don't want to look at you.
I can't see your face..
I'm afraid to see you.
But I'm lost cos your not here
and when I need your embrace
you're somewhere..with her..
That's my biggest fear.
My mistake will haunt me always,
that cold, winter day...
I watched you walk away.
You didn't even look back
or even try to convince me
I was making a mistake..
Or tell me you loved me.
If only I had realized it all before,
maybe I wouldn't have wanted more.
I wanted something new and exciting,
and you agreed to give me
what I asked for.
You shouldn't have let me be free.
But it's not your fault
I place the blame upon me.
But who else can I point the finger at,
I'm actually the only one ruining a nice reality.
I have no choice...
since I know you're forever gone,
I'll have to give you up
and I'll have to move on.
I'm going on, now
without my heart...
and without the love of my life.
I should have shown my feelings, from the start.
I've lost in this battle.. of love.
And now I pay the price...
my heart destroyed.
Without your hand
to guide my way...
I guess I have to pay the price
Tomorrow and today.
Cos I ain't even thinking
about what I might find now.
I Stay locked up in my house
Got lost....someway ..somehow.
Crying myself to sleep every night,
wishing you'd return to me.
But all I have are
my memories and dreams.
So...this is what I wake up too,
Since you're not here...
And thank you so much for
Making me...compete against my fear
Now I lay me down to sleep
I pray to god..my word he'll keep
Cos If I die before I wake..
I want him to know...It was a mistake.
Katie and KaT
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