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這戰爭好累 好累
我不知道 為什麼打
不知道 怎麼結束
不知道 自己怎樣可以投降
所有事
大到身份工作經濟
親人朋友
小到 關燈 睡眠 出門 面對人群 吃飯 流淚
手機充不充電 換不換資費方案
都是永無止盡看不見盡頭的掙扎
掙扎著支票的事到底要請別人講還是自己講
掙扎著要不要傳簡訊
這麼小
這麼微不足道的事情
線上抽牌的程式我一按再按 可以按上幾小時
即使知道那不過是電腦的隨機 無法告訴我任何事
也不可能因此做任何決定
但這幾乎變成猴子實驗的反射 按下去得到一秒的解答
於是我 不停重複 沒有意義的行為
豁出去 摔碎也不在意的話
是不是 就可以停止了????????????????
我好累 真的好累
"the inability to accept losts is a form of insanity"
這我實在無法再同意更多了
但 "but sometimes is't the only way to survive"
真的是這樣嗎?
能不能 有其他方式讓我活下去
不那麼累的方式
不那麼日日夜夜走在邊緣
害怕自己 不知道哪一刻 會掉下去的方式??
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冬天來了 今天暖氣的聲音響起
喚起熟悉的感覺
那些一整晚無法入睡 不出門
蒸氣聲 日夜陪著我
是安慰 但同時也伴著無邊的黑暗漩渦的記憶
整整一年過去了 怎麼 一切都沒有改變????????????????
you don't know (from my favorit broadway show - next to normal)
do you wake up in the morning and need help to lift your head
do you read orbituary and feel jealous of the dead
it's like living on the cliffside
not knowing when you'll dive
do you know do you know what it's like to die alive
when the world that once has colors fades to white and gray and black
when tomorrow terrifies you but you'll die if you look back
you don't know I know you don't know
you said that you're hurting but it sure doesn't show
you don't know you lay me so low
when you said let go and I say you don't know
the sensation that you're screaming but you'll never make a sound
or the feeling that you're falling but you'll never hit the gourd
it just keep on rushing at you day by day by day
you don't know you don't know what it's like to live that way
like a refugee a fugitive forever on the run
if it gets me it will kill me but I don't know what I've done
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※ 編輯: hesione 來自: 74.73.85.168 (10/28 12:00)