[心情] do u love me？

[cremebrulee (Ms 4)]

我常這樣問他
他總說 "of course, I love u with all my heart."

遠距又是姊弟戀
算一算也遠距兩年多了
我的他很愛我
也對我很好
兩年來每天都會傳訊打電話
我不用擔心他沒把我放心上

每次我問他愛我什麼
他總說我的個性我的全部
問他最不喜歡我什麼
他總說沒有
There must be something! 我堅持著
他反問 "is there anything u don't like about me?"
其實他很好 什麼都很好
唯一可挑剔的就是偶爾缺乏成熟男人有的貼心和霸氣
Nothing... 我心虛的回

遠距離已經夠困難了
任何可能會讓他不開心的話我都儘量避免

Babe, what happens if one day you don't love me anymore?

"Why would u say that? I love u forever."

People change as time goes by. Seriously, what happens if one day you don't love me anymore?

"I don't know. What happens if one day u don't love me anymore?"

It depends on whether u still love me then. If not... maybe we just go separate ways...

"That's why we gotta keep things interesting between us. We work on it."

我鼓起勇氣
吞吞吐吐地丟出了這麼一句
I think... I think u r too young for me...

他問我發生什麼事了
我卻也說不出口

對我們的未來感到無助
因為語言、生活圈等問題
我其實不是很想去美國工作
我是個工作狂也對自己的職涯有期許
他也不可能來台灣定居
我已經到了適婚年齡
在他這個年紀的時候我根本沒想到婚姻
所以我也不願跟他多提

眼淚停不下來
他問
Do u still love me like u always have?
我竟然沉默了十秒 還答不出來

他要我開視訊
我不願意
他開了他的
作鬼臉試圖逗我笑

我哭得更慘了

他要我不要多想
再撐一個月他就要來看我了

我愛他
但我也希望他快樂
我不希望自己對人生的規劃影響了他
真的不知道該怎麼辦


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