[陰天] Something ain't right.（雷）

[KYORAN (Gabriel)]

I still have to kill this cocksucker first ,

then I can get my own real rest in peace ,

before my burnt corpse became an artifact or a crap.



As a Scorpio , I'm born to revenge and also die for revenging.

That way make sense to me , to my concious and to what's in my mind now.



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Dear _.

As I decided to kill this MDFKer ,

how you feel is no longer in my consideration.



Just like what you're doing and what you've done to me.

I must kill this MDFKer , it's just a simple buyback.



You are a businessperson , aren't you？

So I'm doing it in your way ,

let us bring this business back on the trail.



I owe you a life , now I'm returning the favor to you.



Business is business.

You've gave me a non-negotiable option ,

and I , am planning to offer you a same one.



Remember , things happened , always for a reason.



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Well , and speaking about you , cocksucker？

Better watch your back , oftenly , of course.

So I can take a clear shot to put a bullet in your head

or give your rib , neck , throat and brain some quick stabs.






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→ hesione: writing to her is exactly the proof that how the
→ hesione: person feel IS in your consideration. or you wouldn't
→ hesione: be writing it. don't give the person the satisfaction
→ hesione: if you're thinking about revenge. that's the opposite
推 hesione: manipulators enjoy the feeling of that you're under
→ hesione: their control without the need to lift one finger for
→ hesione: you. and they can brag to others as their achievement
→ hesione: pretending to complain about it.


Thank you for leaving comment below this insane posting , mi amigo.

Wish I can call you right away to talk about this.

But I have my awereness that I'm just a immature middle-aged psychopath.



Actually , it is "almost" nothing to do with her.

She ignored me for like a century.

So this is not to her but for someone else.



Eyes , multiple-accounts user.

There's no privacy on the internet.

I knew this...coward , has spying on me "here" for a while ,

maybe using her phone or laptop , since they have something.

And screeshots MY posts to pick on her and mess with her ,

that's pretty much a behavior for being a dick , right？

Well , maybe that's their own romantic business , who knows？



But this...I don't even want to relate "it" as a human-being ,

"it" is really pissing me off.

I just wanna get rid of this piece of sh...ort cake ,

to leave her and me alone , forever , by my own hands.

Oh , right , and before I poisoning or lighting myself up.

The "for fuck's sake" bucket list.



→ hesione: *enjoy the feeling that you're under their control
→ hesione: Revenge is not giving what they want.


The Equalizer has his own justice.

Joker turned and got crazy just because he had a "one bad day".



And I have both of them.



I know we're not talking about action movie or comic book ,

I'm just a modern outlaw（redneck）who knows how to take somebody's life.



Basically I don't have any usage to this woman , even for mocking.

So , if there's someone who might try to manipulate me？

I think the answer is kind of obvious.



An eye for an eye.

I think I'll give this scapegoat an eye or take an eye back for myself.



Thank you for your concerning theeeeeeeese months.

You're always my amigo.（BIG HUG）


→ hesione: that's still a form of manipulation that they'd do
→ hesione: such a meaningless thing. The best revenge is to not
→ hesione: give them the satisfaction of being able to bring you
→ hesione: or anyone that they tried to do so by involving you
→ hesione: *bring you down


Means...I've better don't give it any damn？



→ hesione: live your life as best as you could, even just to
→ hesione: enjoy the sun, or a drink or a cigarette. it means
→ hesione: more to you than those people.
→ hesione: that's the best revenge.


My life was fucked up by her , by them.

Still drowning , my clock has stoped , no plan for living ,

middle-aged crisis , illed , drained ; etc. bunch of shits.



Cigarettes sure are well functioning as scuba for me

in this choking shithole but still not enough to keep me alive.



I don't wanna die for doing nothing like this.

I feel despaired toward my future also.

That's why I have thoughts of ending myself ,

and need to get something big done before I died.

At least I need to eliminate this MDFKer as my enemy.



Of course I've considered something bigger ,

like , join the war perhaps ,

well , first of all , I can't get there ,

and I don't think they would recruit

somebody who have no military-trained like me ,

Even I know how to use some simple firearms to take somebody's life ,

but WAR is way too far from just killing or dying.



Ah...sorry , I'm a little tired ,

doing daycare without-pay for my granny recently ,

need some rest , bon nuit for now.



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